finally i met him..a person who had appeared in my life..a person who willing to love me..a person who took care of me..it happened couple years ago, where i had rough time with hafis..he suddenly appeared and gave a 'hand' to me..he pursuade me when i'm cried..since at the moment hafis didnt took care of me a lot..or supposedly i'm the one who should be blame of? hafis took care of me, but i didnt know what went wrong, we always argued even in small matter..i cried a lot, i still remembered that time, where i cried under the clothes rack and he suddenly again appeared and pursuade me..at the beginning i become his post girl, every single letter that he wrote to this one girl who worked at the store beside our workplace...the girl didnt care of him, had a relationship but always broke his heart..he then, announce for a break..he couldnt help the relationship anymore and he make a decision to turn his love to me...and the worse part is i accepted his love..i dont know why..maybe because my relationship at that time i thought that it cannot be aid no more..i going out with him..only in work shift..there is once, he held my hand into his and we started walked together holding hands..in our lunch hour, he used to place his head at my shoulder, showing his love and his childish attitude to me..i liked it at that time..supposed, maybe that is what i need at that moment.the moment i being ignore by hafis..say i'm stupid or anything..i admit it..i been stupid at that moment, never try to save my own relationship that already pass for two years..with that boy, we never declare anything...he keep trying to make me fall in love with him more than my love toward hafis..but sorry for everything, i cannot backstab my boyfriend..one night, i told hafis about us, and as everyone should assume, he getting really2 mad, i mean really mad..he try to find that boy immediately on that night..there is nothing that i could do..i just pray for a miracle..hopefully there is nothing happen between them..that night, i keep crying..i love both of them..or maybe i only did it to get the attention that impossibly i get from hafis that time?
fortunately,the night going well..nothing happens..finally, me and the boy, are not talking to each other, and i quit that job started that night followed the term that hafis made..
and last monday, i met up with him again..a guy that have same date of birth with my mom..wearing a red shirt, holding his girlfriend hand and look at me as he flashback all the momories that we used to have together..he still the same, emo but good looking...wearing his favorite color, red of course..but all the sudden, all that things dissapeared..after saw him, i held hafis hand tighter and tighter..i dont want to let him go..he already accept my apology and that's it! i dont want to repeat the same mistake..enough is enough..hafis love me more than other do, so why should i turn back and go away from him? he is the nicest man i could ever met..
people used to say, 'find a person who love you, if you dont love him, you cant try to..'
sincerity and honesty are the main characters that should be in a relationship..
p/s: it is nice to see you happy with your life now..hopefully, she is the one..i will always pray for your happiness..and sorry for everything and thank you for your love..
