i'm sinned. astaghfirullahalazim..

i'm sorry.. aku tau aku byk wat salah.. i made sins. huge sins. mcm mne aku nk ubah jd diri aku yg dlu blik? Tuhan, tolongla aku.. ='(

dunhill desire blue

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu
Membuat ku terdiam dan terpaku
Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
Saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku

Banyak kata
Yang tak mampu kuungkapkan
Kepada dirimu

Reff:
Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakinimu
Kau tercipta untukku
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu
Sepanjang hidupku

Aku ingin engkau slalu
Hadir dan temani aku
Disetiap langkah
Yang meyakiniku
Kau tercipta untukku
Meski waktu akan mampu
Memanggil seluruh ragaku
Ku ingin kau tau
Kuslalu milikmu
Yang mencintaimu



someone sang dis song to me..he is really meaningful in my life.dont want to lose him..pls.. =(

for the lights of my life.

salam'alaik..

ari ni aku tbaca kisah seorang teman sperjuangan aku kat hutan mantin ni. tsentuh ati aku bca. takziah utk diri dia ats khilangan ayh yg sgt dikasihi.

terasa sebak sbnrnya baca kisah tu. bkn apa, tbyg raut wajah parents aku yg makin lanjut usianya. entahkan bila plak wktu mereka. aku pon xtau la smada leh bthn jika salah seorgnya dpnggil mngadap Ilahi. ya tuhan... =(

sempat ke aku balas jasa mak ayah aku? sempat ke aku gembirakn hati diorg?

umi,ayah...ampunkn sgala dosa ankmu ini..sbesar mne pun jasa umi ngan ayah x dpt yaa nk bls..tlalu agung rsanya..yaa tlalu byk mgejar cinta lain, smpai tlupa cra mcintai parents & fmily sndri..tp syukur alhamdulillah..2 3 menjak ni, hbgn kita makin rapat..yaa da boleh bkongsi suka duka dgn umi ngn ayah..xde lg nk bselindung. xde lg nk brahsia..

i love u both!

p/s: salam takziah sekali lg utk wani..mari sedekahkn al-fatihah utk ayahanda nya yg tcinta..

badan da mcm hippo.prlukan bntuan.

lately, makan nasik macam makan dadah. tak sampai setengah jam, kepala dah lalok. badan dah penat. dalam otak dok tpikir bantal.bantal.bantal. badan pulak dah naik gebu semacam. macam badan hippo.lemak sane sini berkeliaran. haih. ape nk jadi ntah. nafsu makan makin menjadi. sejak masuk hutan mantin ni, dalam kepala otak dok pikir nak makan apa, nak makan apa.

xde disiplin lgsung. konon nak tahan tak nak makan nasik 2 mggu. sekali x smpai 2 ari da melantak nasik berpinggan2. pe nk jadi dgn ko ni!

nak kata happy, xla happy sgt. nk kate sedih, xla sedih sgt. tapi tu la. cmne la nk control mkn ni.

ade x sape2 nk bg cdgn?

bru pas called umi..alhmdulillah..rse lega sket ati ni..mybe rindu sgt ngn fmily kot..syg umi sye..

xpnah rse cmni..rse down gler. xde tmpat nk luahkn prasaan. rse sorg2. bodo ah!

mcm org bodo wat asgmnt! xde idea lgsung! bengang gler!
arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thnx to someone for cheering me up. u know who u are. n i really blessed for met u in dis mantin jungle. u really made my day.
=)

lately,i become so lazy to do anything. i just want to sleep.watch tv.eat.shopping.

suka buang masa skrg! huh!

happy eid mubarak!

it's been a long time since i last update my entry. there are so many things to talk about but i dont feel to write lately, too damn lazy.

owh!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to all bloggers! mintak ampun & maaf for segala salah silap k? kot2 terlaser kat spe2. mintak di maafkan dari hujung rambut sampai la hujung kaki.

anyway, this year eid is so bored! we all just go back to kampung and celebrate eid there. nothing much that we do. not even going anywhere. not ipoh, not batu gajah or elsewhere. haih my dad too broke this eid maybe T_T.

the fourth eid, already packed our things and drove back to KD. nothing much happen there also. the next day we arrived KD, we visited granny grave. ouh! the car got stuck in the mud! LOL.

my brothers and dad are all sweaty wet, tried to get the car out from the mud. try to imagine that they tried to lift that huge Storm 4x4 out from the mud! tak ke patah pinggang? hahaha. lastly, i came to the rescue! ^_^

half hour later, we finally get the car out from the mud. after finished prayer, we headed to my dad's cousin; Uncle Radhi. the most crazy, sporting and sengal uncle. && with mud all over my brothers and dad clothes.

after that, we headed back to KD and that night we go to Subang Jaya to mak long's house.

the next day, umi cooked laksa! my fav! yum! yum!

last sunday, the day that i will heading back to mantin jungle, i lastly get to met my long last mak angkat! i miss her so much! she took care of me since i 20 days old till i about 4 years old. and its been ages then till i finally met her. but i not met abah. nevermind. as long i can see mak. she cried and cried when we hugged together.

we actually circling around the taman medan because my mom had lost mak address. fortunately, after so many hours, we finally found the house, itupun accidently! borak2 sume then, we found out that my abang angkat is closer than we thought. we stayed in the same area only different section in KD. hurmm...what a small world huh?

that night, i headed back to mantin jungle. malas gler nk pegi klas ari isnin tuh! -_-'

so ttfn for now.

happy eid mubarak!

i truly do.

problem.problem.problem. right now i've been surrounded by tons of problems. i'm sick of all these problems especially this one particular problem. this kind of problem can make me become spinster one day. what the heck is she thinking? why not she just forget her intention and think about the people surround her? i want to get married! cant you get it? if you do this thing, my future with him will totally ruin and KABOOM!sigh~

i love you ok? i adore you! but why you did this to him? to me? please! please! please! tell me this all are jokes! tell me all this is not true! i'm begging you! be thankful for what u have now. he such a good boy! such a good man! how can you do this to him.aren't you happy to have someone like him? aren't you happy that God give him to you! but i know, i dont have any right to take any action against you. i dont have any power to stop you doing that thing. i really hope that you dont do what people said and saw about you. i really hope that it will just be a horrible rumor from people who cannot see you happy. dont do it.please.

i wanted to marry him.

i really do.

fever + sore throat + half flu + dizzy = not well

today is 180809 already. and i not even started yet my assignments that due date on 24th August which is NEXT WEEK! i'm not feeling very well lately. after rolled up our business for small business enterprise assignment last week dated on 12 to 14 august, that friday evening i went to Taiping for my becoming niece (btol ke?) kenduri aqiqah. reached there around 230 am and we just went sleep.

the next day, we woke up early. me and my friend and apis, went to Kuala Kangsar to meet up with my friend girlfriend. we got home around 5 and before that me and apis's mom are all wet because of rain.

that night, after relaxing a bit, we went to Sg. Dua located at Penang to meet apis's friend which i DONT like her at all. she has no manner in communication! Fuck u! imagine that, she can whispered to apis asking that if i'm the one who really with him or i'm the new girl in apis life padahal aku duduk antara dia dgn apis kat meja mkn tu. ko bajet aku x dgr ke? b***h!

big ASSHOLE to u lady. da la x sedar diri, bajet nk majuk2 mnje2 plak ngn pakwe aku apesal? aku de kot kat sblh dia. BODOH!

i'm very angry to her. rse nk lempang2 je. pdn muka ko. ko wat aku, aku bls kat ko on the spot. ikot ati aku mls nk salam ngn ko, tp sbbkn aku ni tau lg nk jg ati org, nk beradap sopan, x mcm ko, aku salam gak wpon aku rse jijik ngn ko. reti?

that night, we slept at R&R because apis is lacking sleep and cannot drive. that morning, we woke up at 5 and he drive us back home. smpai je kat umah, kitorg sleep again unti 11 am. tu pon because his mom yg kejutkn. went to shower, and siap for the kenduri aqiqah Nurul Danish.

kurma kambing sedap! nyum! nyum! xD

later that evening, we sleep again. i'm starting to feel dizzy and my body feeling hot.precise at 8 pm, we drove back to kepong, sent kak long first and then straight to kota to sent the van that he rent. then again he sent me here to this Mantin jungle. but before that, we slept in the car at R&R Nilai and i finally arrived here at Legenda around 515 am.

then, as u all can figure out, i skipped 2 classes and show my face only on 2 pm class. today, my fever getting high.i have sore throat, nearly getting flu and waiting what next disease i can add on to my list.

till then, i'm tired. i want to sleep, my head is spinning around and let's forget about the assignments first. can i?

selamat hari lahir umi!

c the tittle?

so the main reason here is just to wish my mum, Happy Birthday!

her birthday was on 2nd August which is on sunday. however, we didn't get to make a family dinner because i have to get head back to here, in this Mantin jungle.

i did get to gave her present and 2 birthday cards. one from us, her kids and one from her beloved boyfriend, of course my father.

though we didn't get to accomplish a family dinner, i felt very satisfied.

on the other hand, i really really REALLY happy for her. i also received my one and only dream that i want from her. what was it? shhh...i wont tell u! =p

so, Selamat Hari Lahir Umi, i love u very deeply and I will try my best to make you happy. the day will come when i will fulfill your dream and accompany you to umrah with dad. i'll try.

love,

ur daughter

cloudy dreams

salam alaik'

past few months lately, i always wondering on what am I going to do as I finished my study. and I already got several plans for my future. Sometimes I really love to study and sometimes I dont. I'm thinking of futhering my study in psychology. I eager to know people surround me more. I want to know what are they thinking of. what action that they will take in certain situations. just hoping that someday I will not be one of the psychotic patients that i'm tried to study! hehe..=p

Then, I want to learn baking. I loved baking! maybe I will take confectionary lesson when I finished my study. I have a dream in opening my own business. A cafe as good as secret recipe or even better! Thus, i also already have the name of my business. however, i will not mention it here, because I'm afraid of someone else use it as their business name before I do. =p. But not only that, I also want to open up any kind of other businesses using the same name. Can I do that? hurmm..

languages! the other thing that I want to do. I want to learn as many languages as possible and started with english. My english is not so good. that is why I wrote all my entries in english as one of my effort to upgrade my english skills. second language, Japan! then maybe Germany, France, Spain and the list going on and on.

so, till now, that are several things that I want to do as I finish up my study. Hopefully I can reach my cloudy dreams.

brief list:-

i) futher study in psychology

ii) take baking lesson

iii) open up new business (cafe)

iv) learn languages!

owh! I also have one gigantic dream beyond all these dreams. I want to give something in return to society. maybe an orphanage home. however, I need to fulfill all those dreams first. God willing.

“Planning is bringing the future into the present so that you can do something about it now” -Alan Lakein-

bananas in pyjamas

I just came back from shop up front and I saw nice beautiful bananas! it's really mouthwatering and I decided to buy the bananas and guess what I just only paid RM 4 for those bananas. When weighing the bananas, I supposed to pay RM 5 but the cashier just asked me to pay RM 4 for the bananas. The bananas really made my day after my group is the first group who asked our Research Project lecturer for the topic that suitable for us in making good research.

So, just now I make some research on the goodness of bananas to our body and i found out this facts that really make you want to buy bananas afterwards!

If you want a quick fix for flagging energy levels there's no better snack than a banana.

Containing three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose - combined with fiber, a banana gives an instant, sustained and substantial boost of energy.

Research has proved that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions making it a must to add to your daily diet.

Anaemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of haemoglobin in the blood and so helps in cases of anaemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it the perfect food for helping to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke.

Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain trypotophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heart-Burn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body so if you suffer from heart-burn, try eating a banana for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito Bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system. Overweight and at work? Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at work leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods such as bananas every two hours to keep levels steady.

PMS: Forget the pills, eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronic ulcer cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

Temperature Control: Many other cultures see bananas as a 'cooling' fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In Thailand, for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood enhancer, trypotophan.

Smoking: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking, as the high levels of Vitamin C, A1, B6, B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water-balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be re-balanced with the help of a high-potassium banana snack.

Strokes: According to research in 'The New England Journal of Medicine', eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of death by strokes by as much as 40%!

Warts: Those keen on natural alternatives swear that, if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of banana skin and place it on the wart, with the yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place with a plaster or surgical tape! So you see a banana really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrate, three times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the other vitamins and minerals. It is also rich in potassium and is one of the best value foods around.

So maybe its time to change that well-know phrase so that we say, "A Banana a day keeps the doctor away!"

sunshine through my window

Alhamdulillah.

with my own effort and also help from the team members, finally I achieved 4.oo for this sem. really thankful especially to God, Umi and Ayah and not to forget my beloved bf, Mohd. Hafis b. Zamahuri for their support and blessings.

with all the anger, lack of sleep, miscommunications, small fights and everything. All paid off this sem with the grade.

Thousand memories of the past sem, the presentations, the acting, borrowing sandals from Mar. Thanks Mar! =) really unforgettable.

see my sandals broke into pieces. tsk tsk T_T

So, this sem will be little bit tough. I have to be prepare and get ready for all the barriers that will show up along this sem. My target? Still trying to achieve 4.00 for this sem and upcoming sem.

Tanda2 menjelang kematian

TANDA 40 HARI

Tanda akan berlaku sesudah

waktu Asar. Bahagian pusat kita

akan berdenyut-denyut. Pada ketika ini

daun yang tertulis nama kita

akan gugur dari pokok yang letaknya di

atas Arash Allah SWT.

Maka Malaikat Maut akan mengambil daun

tersebut dan mula membuat

persediaannya ke atas kita, antaranya

ialah ia akan mula mengikuti

kita sepanjang masa. Akan terjadi

Malaikat Maut ini akan

memperlihatkan wajahnya sekilas lalu dan

jika ini terjadi, mereka

yang terpilih ini akan merasakan

seakan-akan bingung seketika.

Adapun Malaikat Maut ini wujudnya cuma

seorang tetapi kuasanya untuk

mencabut nyawa adalah bersamaan dengan

jumlah nyawa yang akan

dicabutnya.

TANDA 7 HARI

Adapun tanda ini akan diberikan hanya

kepada mereka yang diuji dengan

musibah kesakitan di mana orang sakit

yang tidak makan secara

tiba-tiba ianya berselera untuk makan.

TANDA 3 HARI

Pada ketika ini akan terasa denyutan di

bahagian tengah dahi kita

iaitu diantara dahi kanan dan kiri. Jika

tanda ini dapat dikesan maka

berpuasalah kita selepas itu supaya

perut kita tidak mengandungi

banyak najis dan ini akan memudahkan

urusan orang yang akan

memandikan kita nanti.

Ketika ini juga mata hitam kita tidak

akan bersinar lagi dan bagi

orang yang sakit hidungnya akan

perlahan-lahan jatuh dan ini dapat

dikesan jika kita melihatnya dari

bahagian sisi. Telinganya akan layu

dimana bahagian hujungnya akan

beransur-ansur masuk ke dalam.

Telapak kakinya yang terlunjur akan

perlahan-lahan jatuh ke depan dan

sukar ditegakkan.

TANDA 1 HARI

Akan berlaku sesudah waktu Asar di mana

kita akan merasakan satu

denyutan di sebelah belakang iaitu di

kawasan ubun-ubun di mana ini

menandakan kita tidak akan sempat untuk

menemui waktu Asar keesokan

harinya.

TANDA AKHIR

Akan berlaku keadaan di mana kita akan

merasakan satu keadaan sejuk

di bahagian pusat dan ianya akan turun

ke pinggang dan seterusnya

akan naik ke bahagian halkum.

Ketika ini hendaklah kita terus mengucap

kalimah syahadah dan berdiam

diri dan menantikan kedatangan

malaikatmaut untuk menjemput kita

kembali kepada Allah SWT yang telah

menghidupkan kita dan sekarang

akan mematikan pula.

Sesungguhnya mengingati mati itu adalah pasti

wallahualam bissowab

my baby!

its turn out my baby is turning 1 years old on 22/5 ago and i did not remembered it! sorry baby..mummy is too damn busy!

anyway! happy belated birthday for my baby blog! u r growing up now..gonna make you healthy by 'feeding' u lots and tons of entries!

luv ya!

xoxo

mummy

=D

happy besday atim!

it might be too late but I want to story about my best friend birthday who we just celebrated her on 050609. We last seeing each other as I remembered is on 2005 where we had our SPM examinations. so, it just long waayyy back since we hang out together and gossiping about others. Then the day came, June 05, we planned to meet at One Utama, which is very lame place because we usually go there for dates or just hang out. so, there is nothing special there. So, the plan was to meet up there because my fren who is the besday girl had moved from our place, so she has to come by her own. At 2.20 pm, I picked up Izzah, my bestie and her sister and together we go there by car. I drove! hahaha..

We met at McDonalds which is again lame, because it is birthday right? we supposed to eat at some special place, maybe like secret recipe or TGI Friday right? However, it's the birthday girl decision and we just followed her. make ordering, threw some camwhores and ate. After filled our stomach with foods, we then go throw some balls! no double meaning ok? i mean bowling balls! ngee~~

We accidently met couple of our schoolmates which one of them used to admire me =p

After tired threw some balls, we just walked around and try to find something interesting while waiting for atim (besday girl) with his bf. We walked in into this shop and bought aroma theraphy. I'm hoping that it can calm me because lately I'm damn busy with the assignments, the Viva, the presentation and incoming final exam. STRESS!

After wiating about 10 minutes, we together sent her back to her home and met her family. long time no see umi!

huhu..then at 9 pm, we heading back to our place, I sent my bestie and her sister to their home and me and my sister heading back home. It's very long day but i'm very happy that we finally met each other after several years been separated. =D

besday girl! atim

the cakes!

from left: chaa, iz, atim, apif

wana & yaya

hah! caught u with ur silly face!

eat time~~ =D

chaa & iz

kunun pndai maen bowling~

atim, wana, me,chaa

p/s: I'm still searching for my long lost friend. last see her when we in standard 3. to Alia Farina bt Rosli, I miss u damn much and i still hoping that we can meet again someday! xoxox

Happy Mother's Day

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, UMI!

thanks for all the sacrifies that you have done to our family..

repeating back my promise, I will be a good daughter to you..

I'll be the second crying houlder for you after dad.. because I knew that you are trying your best to keep your children being a well-mannered person in their life and your life.

thanks for being there when I need you (lately)

thanks for your pre-blessing towards my relationship with Angah

thanks for trying to share your thought and opinion within me and Angah relationship

thanks for letting us out eventhough we always came back late

thanks for your hardness in making me happy

thanks for GIVE BIRTH OF ME!

thanks for everything!

without you

life is meaningless

for us, you are our SUPERMOM

the Greatest Mom ever..

Happy Mother's Day

also to all moms out there

you make this world fabulous!

A Mothers Love

To some love is just a word

To me it's a feeling

A feeling I get every time I look into your eyes

A feeling I get when I realize your my mom

A mom who loves, shares, A mom who inspires

Unconditionally

What's that?

That's love

A mothers love, but only you would know

And me

You returned that love time and time again

Possibly to much, nevertheless you did

Thank-you

Thank-you for being there when I needed you most

For being my rock when I should have been yours

Thank-you for believing in me, even when I doubted myself

For being the one person I could trust

No matter what, no matter where

But most of all thank-you for being you-my mom

A mom I am so proud to claim

I love you

Now and forever

apologies given, pls receives with an open heart

Actually there are several persons that I need to thank for from what I'm right now. However,since those several persons already being my 'dark' side for in my life, I think it just better to keep it low in here. It is not because I'm trying to lick my spit back, but eventually, I think that those persons deserve maybe a thanks from me and no thanks for what they have done to my life. I dont want to hold grudge in my life, through my life. It can consequencely destroy my future from being a good person.

from deep down form the bottom of my heart, I'm sorry from what I have done to any person for any my stupidity actions, tones that makes you feel annoying and whatsoever. hehe..  

I was waiting there almost up to half an hour. What am I supposed to do when they coming in? Yelling to them? I was really upset. I was trying to save them from drowning in this situation but they seem not appreciate what I want to do to them. Are they really want to drown themselves and not allow anyone to rescue them? Be calm Aqish. Life isn't that easy. After all, after that incident ( waiting for too long) happened, I decided to packed up my things and going back. My heart cannot control it anymore. I was about to yell and curse them to the end, but I know things will not going to change if I do that. Knowing that one of the 'people' always late and MIA, can really pissed me off if I saw that person coming in and walking towards me with smile on he/her face. F you!

So, before anything get worse, it is better I leave from that sick place! 

'Rhobbi yassir wala tuassir, rhobbi tammim bil khoir'

- berikan lah aku permulaan & kesudahan yang baik-

throwing some 'shares'

it was really nice sitting on the toilet bowl and suddenly dozens of ideas came out running in my mind. eventhough my stomach is growling nearly this 3 am, i really dont mind. wondering on what am i supposed to do with the tons of assignments.sigh.assignments do annoying ok? but what was really pissed me off when i started to type and everything was gone in a blink of eyes. 

learning with Ms.Shamima really makes me happy, and i dont know why eventhough i had a worse situation with her previously. sorry miss.i really need to make up with you.. =)

anyway,i have to struggle a lot this semester and upcoming semester as well. i really need to be independent and not relying on anybody now. its time for me to 'shine' myself in front of everyone. upfront myself without anyone shadowing me. i'm so eager to finish up her assignments. yes, she teaching us two subjects. one is individual assignment and another is group assignment. I'm totally flooding with creative and interesting ideas, the only problem is i'm so lazy to finish up my assignments. sigh.. -_-'

oh dear..my stomach is growling again! i'll update Ms.Shamima pic in the next entry ok? gotta go! i have some 'shares' to throw!

p/s: do you think is better for me to finish upmy assignments in the toilet? hrmmm...(curious)

perfect! =)

saat ini aku rasa amat bahagia!

pedulikan apa yang orang lain kata tentang aku!

hari ini adalah paling sempurna buat aku..

terima kasih Tuhan..

syukur diatas nikmatMu, Kasih sayangMu, rezeki yang Kau beri ini..

Kau tunjukkan lah aku jalan yang Kau redhai...

amin...

sekarang aku sudah mampu tersenyum kembali..

maafkan aku andai ada ketika aku melupakan Mu...

sesungguhnya aku hanyalah hamba yang lemah disisiMu

jemput makan cili.. =D

muka manusia ni memang berlapis2..

kalau tak nak, cakap TAK NAK..

tak payah nak sindir2, tak payah nak umpat2 kat belakang.

ni dah tunjukkan betapa busuknya hati kau.. =)

sekarang ni, tak pasal2 kau buat mulut aku tak berlapis.. tak ada filter.

eh! kenapa? kau rasa pedas ke?

gendang gendut dunia baru

terima aku atau tidak dalam hidup kamu, bukan aku yang menentukannya.

aku tau had mana keterbatasan hidup aku dalam hidup kamu. tidak. aku tidak terasa. memang layak aku dilayan sebegitu kerna aku tau aku ini hanyalah pendatang baru dalam dunia kamu. tapi, tidak mengapa, andai kamu tidak membenarkan langkah jejak kakiku ini menapak dalam dunia kamu, aku tidak berkecil hati.

aku hanya mahu bersikap optimis. mungkin kamu sangka aku tidak mendengar tapi suara hati aku nyata kuat mendengar setiap kata2 yang terpacul dari mulut kamu.

aku tidak salahkan kamu. mungkin kamu masih terkejut dengan kedatangan aku ke dalam dunia kamu. niat aku hanya satu, melibatkan diri bersama dunia luar.

aku sedikit bahagia dari yang dulu. benar. terasa besar dunia ini berbanding yang dulu. bagaikan terlihat warni warni rama2 yang berterbangan disisi aku.

cuma, aku perlu tabah. tabah menghadapi serangan 'zombie2' yang ganas dan rakus meratah setiap inci badanku. aku tahu mereka memerhatikan aku disaat ini, bersembunyi disebalik bayang2 gelap sambil memerhatikan saat bilakah langkahku mulai longlai dan akhirnya jatuh tersungkur mengadap bumi.

mungkin..

usiaku masih mentah tapi aku dah begitu banyak menghadapi pengalaman hidup yang amat memeritkan dan membuatkan aku jatuh. kamu tak akan tahu dan tak akan faham sebab kamu tidak pernah berada ditempat aku dan tak akan berada ditempat aku. jadi aku akan cuba untuk hidup tanpa kamu. tanpa kata2 yang sinis menghiris, tanpa gelak tawa yang menghancurkan jiwa dan tanpa pandangan mata yang membunuh.

makin aku kenal manusia makin aku matang dan makin aku tahu betapa ramainya manusia yang kurang matang dan kurang jiwa. tak guna kamu solat 5 waktu sehari, berpuasa sunat selama seminggu (aku pon x tau mazhab mne ko ikot) andai hati kamu busuk. jiwa kamu kosong, akal kamu pendek.

jangan gunakan nama Tuhan, andai isi hati kamu memburukkan orang lain.

' alhamdulillah, anak aku baik, x mcm anak si polan bin si polan.' (contoh).

sebab penghujungnya nanti, bahagian kamu akan kamu terima juga di akhirat nanti.