only left 3 more days before fasting month begin..i can't wait! i'm so exhausted actually..i keep going back home and come back here at college..last 3 weeks ago, i went back home because of the end of the last sem..and two weeks after that which is last week, i went home again for my uncle wedding reception! gosh! i'm really tired and not getting enough sleep of course..eating a lot! hahaha.. ^o^
and this week i will going back home again! for this fasting month..however, i think i cannot make the first fasting day because of...ehem..ehem..women problems..yay! its been 2 years since i cannot fast at the first day of ramadhan..
talking about ramadhan, this sem, i will not able to fast at home a lot..have to stay here because mid term exam is around the corner..only a week before raya coming..so, it is just rare to open the fast with my family! uwaa.. T_T
syawal also only a month ahead, fortunately, my baju kurung already prepared..i remembered when i was small at the age of 7-8 years old at that time, raya was the best part in my life..getting a lot of 'duit raya', the warmth environment that i had..kids here and there, went around the neighbourhood and ate lot of 'kuih raya'..unfortunately, nowadays, the situation is not same as past few years ago..no more kids here and there..if there is, they only came for 'duit raya'..not for the 'kuih raya' or just visiting their neighbours..
hopefully, all of this sadness i felt because of this few years will wash out..
so! SELAMAT BERPUASA for all the bloggers and SELAMAT BECOMING HARI RAYA! huhu..
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Sunday, August 17, 2008
to my dear friend...i love u...
my dear...
i wrote this to told u how much that i love u..i dont want bad things happen to u..remember ur old case?with ur boyfriend?i wrote this not to humiliate u..but, i dont know where else i can puke out all this things..u'r still young, people can still adore u..
but please honey..please try to pick someone else than him..its not that i want to control ur life, but believe me when i said that i have bad feeling with this guy..i'm not accusing him..no i'm not..
but, as i said earlier, i dont want any bad things happen to u..please dear, pick someone else...
he's someone's husband! and more complicated than that, he's have two wives!imagine u in his wives shoes?can u accept his behavior? going out with someone who we can call him 'pakcik or ayah'? u gave me a shock when u told me that u have feelings towards him..
he have lots of experiences...and of course he knows how to make ur heart melts with all his words? cut it out! for ur own life! or if u dont want to, please...think about ur mom...its not ease to share ur life, ur love with his other wives...and believe me..i'll not shock if he will do the same thing to u..(if u marry him) with other women..and another thing, his 'nafsu serakah' still high...and of course he want someone who still 'bergetah' to be the next! u cant imagine how i felt yesterday when u went out with him...till 12 to 1 am? c'mon! it s not logic at all! if anything happen to u, what do u expect me to tell ur mom? and the worst part, u can called me and told me that no need to worry about u, u still at seremban and u want to celebrate his birthday and only be back home at 12 @ 1 am??!!! and how on earth he want to celebrate his birthday thus he already near to 30 something? u know what? he is just using u, he's lonely, his first wife abandond him, his childrens all back at kampung, his second wife also have to stay at kampung and he live alone here..there! the truth is there! cant u see?? how can u trust a man in a slight of eyes? u just met him..less than 2 months....
oh god...think dear! think! use ur little brain..u r human! not a bug who have little brain and cannot think at all..see in the long term..i mean really 'long term'! not just a week or two weeks later!
unfortunately for me...i can only ask for ur favor, but its all up to u...ur call..if u think that what am i saying here are not acceptable, its fine for me..u have right in ur life...u can do anything that u want but hold on to my words..i am still ur fren whatever happen and u can still count on me..u can still have my shoulder to cry on..u can still hug me whenever u need me..coz i am ur fren...just, take care of urself and dont ever ever u let anyone using u..i love u dear..and i will always pray for ur happiness...
ur best friend,
aqish
i wrote this to told u how much that i love u..i dont want bad things happen to u..remember ur old case?with ur boyfriend?i wrote this not to humiliate u..but, i dont know where else i can puke out all this things..u'r still young, people can still adore u..
but please honey..please try to pick someone else than him..its not that i want to control ur life, but believe me when i said that i have bad feeling with this guy..i'm not accusing him..no i'm not..
but, as i said earlier, i dont want any bad things happen to u..please dear, pick someone else...
he's someone's husband! and more complicated than that, he's have two wives!imagine u in his wives shoes?can u accept his behavior? going out with someone who we can call him 'pakcik or ayah'? u gave me a shock when u told me that u have feelings towards him..
he have lots of experiences...and of course he knows how to make ur heart melts with all his words? cut it out! for ur own life! or if u dont want to, please...think about ur mom...its not ease to share ur life, ur love with his other wives...and believe me..i'll not shock if he will do the same thing to u..(if u marry him) with other women..and another thing, his 'nafsu serakah' still high...and of course he want someone who still 'bergetah' to be the next! u cant imagine how i felt yesterday when u went out with him...till 12 to 1 am? c'mon! it s not logic at all! if anything happen to u, what do u expect me to tell ur mom? and the worst part, u can called me and told me that no need to worry about u, u still at seremban and u want to celebrate his birthday and only be back home at 12 @ 1 am??!!! and how on earth he want to celebrate his birthday thus he already near to 30 something? u know what? he is just using u, he's lonely, his first wife abandond him, his childrens all back at kampung, his second wife also have to stay at kampung and he live alone here..there! the truth is there! cant u see?? how can u trust a man in a slight of eyes? u just met him..less than 2 months....
oh god...think dear! think! use ur little brain..u r human! not a bug who have little brain and cannot think at all..see in the long term..i mean really 'long term'! not just a week or two weeks later!
unfortunately for me...i can only ask for ur favor, but its all up to u...ur call..if u think that what am i saying here are not acceptable, its fine for me..u have right in ur life...u can do anything that u want but hold on to my words..i am still ur fren whatever happen and u can still count on me..u can still have my shoulder to cry on..u can still hug me whenever u need me..coz i am ur fren...just, take care of urself and dont ever ever u let anyone using u..i love u dear..and i will always pray for ur happiness...
ur best friend,
aqish
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
love journey of a girl
on a one fine day, a girl told her mom that she want to work while waiting for the next year..she told her mom that she want to keep all her money for the school fees, stationery and etc..she made up her mind to try find a job at one utama, a shopping mall near her home..however, her mom told her, why not she work at mcDonalds, beside it's the nearest place she can work at and she dont need to spend her money on food..instead she can have free eating while she working there..
so, one day, they went to McDonalds and ask about the job at the drive thru..in the same week, she asked one of her friend to fill up the form with her..at least she have a friend who she can accompany to..
the following week, they being called by the management to come for the interview..wearing a blue long sleeve t-shirt and a jeans, the girl and her friend went there..finally, they both got the job and unfortunately for the girl, she had a soar eyes and it makes her works the next two weeks later..there, she became a cashier..entertained people and she found out that the job was very tough and need speed..her manager always placed her in the morning where she supposed to be at the restaurant early in the morning at 7 o'clock..
one day, her friend being asked to help other McDonalds outlet at The Mall Kuala Lumpur to handle their restaurant because they had a dinner that night..supposedly, her friend who being asked to go there..but, unfortunately, she made up some shit and the girl had to replace her..it made her so panic and her manager (kak M) asked her to asked this one manager whether she can follow him go there by his car..the girl told him that she had no money and he had to tanggung all her expenses..instead he said,'ooo. ko ingat abg ade duet la?..'but, she know that's all was a joke..
so, followed him by his car they went to The Mall..giler! there they have to doubled up (triple maybe) their speed because customer didnt stop entering the restaurant! she's very exhausted!so, after all running here and there, they finally closed the outlet..that night in the car, he (the manager that give the girl a lift) told her that he didnt sleep for 3 days!so innocently she told him ' abg, balik nie sue (her nickname) nk abg tido..jgn wat pe,trus tdo..'
started from that moment, they become close and 1 day he told that girl that she's his adik angkat..she is so so happy that finally she had abang angkat..he take care of her..
one night, the girl and him lepak at McD and she read all his inbox messages in his phone..suddenly he told the girl that, if someday he have a girlfriend, he wanted to meet with his becoming girlfriend parents..if he want to ask the girl out, he will ask the parents of his girlfriend permission..and girls..what do you think and expect from this ordinary guy?
so, to make the story and the girl's life more beautiful, she fall in love with him..she kept her feeling towards him..until half a year later, she cannot stand it anymore..she have fall in love with him and she dont want to see other women take him from her..when his birthday arrive at 5th of june, she expressed her feeling to him..he said he had knew it before..he had realized it..she blushed..she felt ashamed!the only thing that he did is kept smiling and say nothing..the girl felt guilty! she is not supposed to make him like this..he is her abang angkat and she should keep it that way!
after the incident, on 28th of June..her birthday..he sent the girl a message..his message written..'happy birthday, moga dengan bertambahnya usiamu, hubungan kita semakin erat..'at last! she finally found out how his feeling towards her..they never declare their relationship..but, what she knew, they finally had a special relationship...that situation dated on 31 December 2004...now..on 4th of August 2008, they nearly close to their 4th anniversary...she never imagine that she will have a steady relationship with anyone...maybe, next year they will engage..hopefully..
she love him so much..
she hope that he will love him as mush as she do..
and maybe more..
at this moment, she is smiling..reading back her story that written by her ownself..looking back how the journey of her true love began..telling her that how lucky she is that she have found a man that she love and the man love her also..that girl is....me..
so, one day, they went to McDonalds and ask about the job at the drive thru..in the same week, she asked one of her friend to fill up the form with her..at least she have a friend who she can accompany to..
the following week, they being called by the management to come for the interview..wearing a blue long sleeve t-shirt and a jeans, the girl and her friend went there..finally, they both got the job and unfortunately for the girl, she had a soar eyes and it makes her works the next two weeks later..there, she became a cashier..entertained people and she found out that the job was very tough and need speed..her manager always placed her in the morning where she supposed to be at the restaurant early in the morning at 7 o'clock..
one day, her friend being asked to help other McDonalds outlet at The Mall Kuala Lumpur to handle their restaurant because they had a dinner that night..supposedly, her friend who being asked to go there..but, unfortunately, she made up some shit and the girl had to replace her..it made her so panic and her manager (kak M) asked her to asked this one manager whether she can follow him go there by his car..the girl told him that she had no money and he had to tanggung all her expenses..instead he said,'ooo. ko ingat abg ade duet la?..'but, she know that's all was a joke..
so, followed him by his car they went to The Mall..giler! there they have to doubled up (triple maybe) their speed because customer didnt stop entering the restaurant! she's very exhausted!so, after all running here and there, they finally closed the outlet..that night in the car, he (the manager that give the girl a lift) told her that he didnt sleep for 3 days!so innocently she told him ' abg, balik nie sue (her nickname) nk abg tido..jgn wat pe,trus tdo..'
started from that moment, they become close and 1 day he told that girl that she's his adik angkat..she is so so happy that finally she had abang angkat..he take care of her..
one night, the girl and him lepak at McD and she read all his inbox messages in his phone..suddenly he told the girl that, if someday he have a girlfriend, he wanted to meet with his becoming girlfriend parents..if he want to ask the girl out, he will ask the parents of his girlfriend permission..and girls..what do you think and expect from this ordinary guy?
so, to make the story and the girl's life more beautiful, she fall in love with him..she kept her feeling towards him..until half a year later, she cannot stand it anymore..she have fall in love with him and she dont want to see other women take him from her..when his birthday arrive at 5th of june, she expressed her feeling to him..he said he had knew it before..he had realized it..she blushed..she felt ashamed!the only thing that he did is kept smiling and say nothing..the girl felt guilty! she is not supposed to make him like this..he is her abang angkat and she should keep it that way!
after the incident, on 28th of June..her birthday..he sent the girl a message..his message written..'happy birthday, moga dengan bertambahnya usiamu, hubungan kita semakin erat..'at last! she finally found out how his feeling towards her..they never declare their relationship..but, what she knew, they finally had a special relationship...that situation dated on 31 December 2004...now..on 4th of August 2008, they nearly close to their 4th anniversary...she never imagine that she will have a steady relationship with anyone...maybe, next year they will engage..hopefully..
she love him so much..
she hope that he will love him as mush as she do..
and maybe more..
at this moment, she is smiling..reading back her story that written by her ownself..looking back how the journey of her true love began..telling her that how lucky she is that she have found a man that she love and the man love her also..that girl is....me..
written on 04/08/08
my happy ending...
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i love him..i love him so much..till the end of my life..i finally settled my fear, my feeling and my problems..finally i vommited all my fear to him..i told him that sometimes i feel bored being with him..sometimes i feel terribled loving him..sometimes i hated himand sometimes i want to run from him...we had cried..a very huge cried within our ownself..we hugged and he told me that what had past already past..maybe long time ago he had a grudged over me..because of my parents..that is why sometimes he will make me felt like a jerk..but now..thankful to God, my parents finally accept him in my life..as my friend, my love, my being fiance and also my future husband..i'm so glad..so! thanks a lot umi & ayah for blessing us together..now, after the acceptance of my parents..we are totally happy with our relationship..we can simply go out together..not like usual where we have to make a secret meeting..he also take care of me..really really care..and it had opened my eyes towards him..i can finally love him without a doubt...he is the one..he is the person who i willing to spent my life with..he is my husband..he is Mohd.Hafis bin. Zamahuri...
*just now, he told me that his dad want usto engage as soon as possible..he just wanting it for so long..so, we had planned to get engage next year..insyaaLLah..so abah..we hope you can wait till that time arrive..and hopefully, my parents wont make a bad movement and tought in this relationship anymore..just wait and see..i cannot hold on much longer..and i cannot wait it anymore..
*just now, he told me that his dad want usto engage as soon as possible..he just wanting it for so long..so, we had planned to get engage next year..insyaaLLah..so abah..we hope you can wait till that time arrive..and hopefully, my parents wont make a bad movement and tought in this relationship anymore..just wait and see..i cannot hold on much longer..and i cannot wait it anymore..
^_^
written on 3/8/08
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